[Sasuke's right. He's right, but alcohol has a way of muddying your thinking, intensifying some things and distorting others, and everything he's been trying to push away and escape from since he stumbled through that mirror has built up and it's this moment where the dam cracks--]
It's a choice you made because of me!
[That's always how it is. He brings misfortune. He drags others down with him.]
The full moon messed you up too, right? What if that had happened sooner? What if I went out of control and you couldn't stop me like you said?
[He had no choice but to trust that Sasuke could fight him off, in that moment, because it was that or harm someone vulnerable, like he hasn't done since he was a child, and the gamble paid off. But he knows luck like that doesn't come to him often. It could've gone so, so wrong. And he shouldn't have let it happen.]
I could've killed you, and you're acting like it was my safety that mattered in all this!
[He puts his face in a hand, covering those uncanny red eyes of his. He wasn't ready to confront any of this. His denial of the situation with his transformation almost got a kid killed while he was focused on researching escape, and he doesn't even have a Bond yet. Doesn't trust anyone enough for one, either, so he's trying to hold it together on that front, too.
He doesn't go for the drink again, but his voice lowers after that outburst, and he sounds tired.]
...So no, I'm not gonna contact you if it happens again, because it won't. I'll be ready next time.
[He'll barricade his damn doors with silver himself if he has to.]
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It's a choice you made because of me!
[That's always how it is. He brings misfortune. He drags others down with him.]
The full moon messed you up too, right? What if that had happened sooner? What if I went out of control and you couldn't stop me like you said?
[He had no choice but to trust that Sasuke could fight him off, in that moment, because it was that or harm someone vulnerable, like he hasn't done since he was a child, and the gamble paid off. But he knows luck like that doesn't come to him often. It could've gone so, so wrong. And he shouldn't have let it happen.]
I could've killed you, and you're acting like it was my safety that mattered in all this!
[He puts his face in a hand, covering those uncanny red eyes of his. He wasn't ready to confront any of this. His denial of the situation with his transformation almost got a kid killed while he was focused on researching escape, and he doesn't even have a Bond yet. Doesn't trust anyone enough for one, either, so he's trying to hold it together on that front, too.
He doesn't go for the drink again, but his voice lowers after that outburst, and he sounds tired.]
...So no, I'm not gonna contact you if it happens again, because it won't. I'll be ready next time.
[He'll barricade his damn doors with silver himself if he has to.]